Warming Up to telling the Story

Having seen the comments that were left, I now realize that I have followed a maiden into a group of poets and prophets. I wonder if I like Saul will become as one of the prophets.

I'm an artist. It's probabily safer to say that if anything, I'm an kindred soul of Arthur Rimbaud,Henry Miller, and William Blake.

Let's just say I can relate. I also have a story to tell and a really hardtime getting myself to get it out....put it down in words and images....honestly, I struggle to tell my story....maybe it is to soon....maybe I'm suppose to be dead first.....not my first choice....

The truth is that my images need the background of my life and I'm uncomfortable talking about it....help! ?

I wrote this today...

I'm always finding that I have to explain myself.

Alot of times life seems to me to be like accidentally walking into a cafeteria and sitting down with a group of total strangers.

Yeah,social anxiety is something that I find that seems to cause me to stumble through life. Maybe that's one of the reasons I'm an artist.

In my mind this is another question. What came first the chicken heart or the egghead?

esoteric artist

I get online maybe once in a blue moon lately...

.i feel like i need to apologize or something.

..i feel as if something is expected of me in someway..

.i did have some intentions of making friends with a few people and hopefully get myself to find a balance between creating work, family duties, and taking my work and my story to a bigger community on the internet...

.I feel like that the idea is that we can be more available to one another as people and not the reclusive artist that I have become in my mind. Always usually unavailable to everyone..

..my life is spent on my family and my art work..

...that is the way it is now, in reality, i feel like it is an selfish way to live...

.we must contribute something even more of ourselves to this world for some reason...

.i'm driven to it in one form or another...

.it has always been that way in my life..

...right now, i'm driven for my family....most people are i think...or for themselves...

Isn't that the big split of modern times, that we either put first ourselves or our family or Religion comes into play........I really think I've done all three....then their is the artist side of this life...it's something esoteric....feels like the right word to use...

..the mysterious energy and drive....
and what it does to a basically normal guy...

Why are we always making art?

I think alot of times as an artist, I avoid this question.

personal quote: art and life rule of thumb

The thing about art, it's one of those things in life that you'd alot rather be doing than talking about.

Art or Voyeurism

Rather than getting into some political discussion...

I'll say this:

I'm talking to this buddy of mine and I ask him what he thought about it all. In other words I told him I was working on some new stuff and pulling some things off the shelf that weren't your normal run of skulls,surrealism, and beach scenes.

You really should see my beach scenes.

I told him I was making some nudes. And not just nudes. Some of them were pretty sexual or erotic.